she is the one and only kai lin. kai lin sometimes also goes by the name DancingSheep.
kai lin is 14 in the year 2008 but will be 15 at 0000 25062008. kai lin is currently studying in nanyang girls' high
school.
8:58 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
oh my frigging god. i am so bloody tired. hahaha. BUT YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! =) i am bloody happy too. wooooooheeeeehaaaa! i am into cleaning now. what is wrong with me. tsk. i cnt stand a messy sight nowadays. and i actually enjoy cleaning and see my stuffs in order and the fact that it actually looks clean and good after all the cleaning. damn, this must be sm mental thing which is trying to divert my thinking to sth else so that i wont remember the horrible truth which is still very hard to take. i know i know, ive been complaining so much. lemme complain ok? its better than i keep it in me. if not, i will go bonkers. i swear. you dont have to comfort me, hahaha. its really ok koh zhao. WEIRDLY, koh zhao's ways seemed to work and make me a whole lot better. *awww* thank you horrr. =) what the fish lah. im bloody tired. but my house is clean. YAY! im really good. its thursday. wtf. only thursday. i cannot stand two periods of chem lah. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD, gimme some more strength to help me thru. I HAVENT DO GEOGRAPHY. i would be too ashamed to force ppl to hand in 2moro. hahaha, GOOOODNESS. i will explain to linda lim. YOU ALL BETTER DO BY FRIDAY AH. i hope she allows tho. i did not eat anything today besides, cheese hotdog - breakfast. grilled chicken foldover - lunch. tauhue - dinner. and yeah, nuggets. friggin hungry. i hate school. i hate everything. {i will warm you with my hug and kiss}
8:01 PM
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
{ bangs head on the wall and run around naked } see what you did to me, you loser. heart pain you know. ive been telling myself its ok, but i really really am very sad. ok, i shall not lie anymore. i am terribly heartbroken and i just want to charge thru the gates of the school and crash the whole thing. i want to be there, damn it. finally, i thot i could do sth, and do it good. i put my freaking heart and soul to finish up the stupid shits. stay up so late and wasted so much printing paper. i make myself present at the meetings and i really fucking want to fucking go. but on the other hand, its just my own bloody fault and i know i can do nth to change anything. its gona take some time for me, and all the rest of us, to come to terms with this stupid piece of gundu shite. im. just. damn. sad. haiyoh, so mean. so damn mean. my heart is in many many pieces. and the only one who can mend it is not here. how? ive been cheated of my feelings so many times in these four years. ahaha, what a mean world. grrr. how to start smiling again? this whole entire process of typing this post is filled with anger. my eyes get watery at the thot of the horrible truth taking place. and that, i wont be there to enjoy it. believe it or not, i am still clinging on to this little piece of hope that this horrible truth is not going to take place without me. its a very little piece, but its still sth aint it? GOD, NADZIRAH. suck it up man. tsk. i hate this feeling. GIVE ME ICE CREAM. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!
1:08 PM
Monday, May 26, 2008
its oooook. its allrighhhhhttt. just how much beachier can you get woman? tsk tsk tsk. how horrible it must be to be you. being cursed over and over again? hahaha. ryte pisang? watch the news tonight man. get ready our uniforms, we have a very important parade to attend soon. we would march and sing all around your grave, screaming with joy. and hey, we might even do... the ever famous "fire of joy" or "le feu de joie". HA.HA.HA. watch your back fat woman. mark my words. watch. your. back.
{ Step by step, heart to heart, left right left We all fall down like toy soldiers Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win But the battle wages on for toy soldiers } toy soldiers hate marie. fork.
9:29 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
ok ok, people, this is just a random post. the post before this random post is the real post, so yes. this random post is dedicated to a particular person. squint, yesss, squint. aha, right there. now listen hard, ok, read hard. whatever. if i were in normal conditions, which im sure you wont understand, I WOULD HAVE SPANKED THAT BURNT ASS OF YOURS A BLOODY LONG TIME AGO, but noooo, i am not in a normal condition, so i cant. ryte? RYTE. you may look and wink and hug and kiss and hold hands and get mushy.. all because of this abnormal condition i am in. yesss baybeh yesss. you are going thru exactly what i went thru. AHA. call urself big, YESSS, very big indeed, but u are just a shallow human being, who at that time was just as loser as i was. who gave you the damn right to judge me? p****? p*******? all full of bullshit. now you know? well, i hope you know. HAH.HAH.HAH. i would love to just laugh hard at that face of yours with my saliva all over it. wooooh, yess baybeh yess. that would be a wonderful sight aint it? WA.HA.HA.HA. oh get a life pantai. get a life. its damn bloody annoying. wheepee. ok, blogging is fun. especially when you can let all out in a way where people would be wondering. heh? hate may be a strong word, so i'll just say, i dont like you. BIG TIME. now, STAY AWAY. i freaking bite heads off. and your big head, is no exception. happy holidays people. =)
8:06 PM
all RYTE. i know i know. you ppl are waiting for the picts to be up. stupid usb got lost and so i had to resort to stuffing the memory card into my sister's lappy and then send it to zip folder and then send it to my msn via her msn. did you really read all that? tsk tsk tsk. so yesss, major events took place while im gone people. aha. and the wonderful thing is, my handy dandy camera was with me all along! WOOHOO! give it up for CANON POWERSHOT A560!!! WOOOHOOO!! CANON'S IN THE HOUSE YA'LL! (too much mtv already. too much) ok ok, soooo on 18th may, i had THE AMAZING RACE. AHAHAHAHA. with my lovelies from madrasah. our group name: THE WINNER IS. rationale behind it, well, we were confident of winning. so we were thiking, when the person announce who won, it would sound like this.. " and sooo, the winner is.. THE WINNER IS!! " hahahahaha. GEDDIT? yeah. ok. moving on. in the end, we got 5th place lah sia. EH, not bad you know, out of arn 18 groups. not easy you know. we were in black tudong smore, run here run there. its god damn fun i tell you. aha, then we went to catch congkak at ehub. pretty pretty ehub. i loike! some pictures after tired of running like mad pigs.
aha, ok. next major event: last parade. like really really last ok. had a good laugh and i was god damn amused by 'blind bats' who had to endure thru the torture. AHAHAHA. wish i cud put up the pictures, BUT NAH, private and confidential you know. so yes, we love charlie 08, ryte part c spects? =) MUCHO GUSTO LOVE-O!
ira and the banana. yummy healthy fruits? ryte? ryyyteee. yes, the feast. stand proud, stand tall. GO staff cheryl! =) yes yes *sob sob* OK NEXT EVENT. =) bloody-stupid-waste-of-freaking-time-and-energy-CROSS-COUNTRY! WOOHOOO! guess what? x cntry turned out to be not so bad! u noe why? coz the nature walk with dear dear delta was oh so lovely. we took pictures, we talked, we laughed and best of all, we did it all together. now everybody, go.." awwww". wheeheehee. of course we did not walk the WHOLE ENTIRE WAY. we brisk-walked in front of ms ng, we chased after gin and yeah, we sprinted the last 100 m or so. WHEEPEEE! =)
yess, all lovey, all dovey. SAY WHAAAAAAAAT? our attempt on jumping together. explains the expressions. no? AHA THEN. we had photoshoot for AHEMAHEM. here you gooo, part c spects. photographer: the nur who rulez: nurul. pose: inspired by the one and only, fatimah ili and gang. (inside joke)
photographer : the nur who rules. nurul. pose: inspired by the zhaoming and co.
needless to say, the empty spot is for the head. HAHAHAHA. and then, JENG JENG JENG....
" Ladies and gentlemen, we have now arrived at bedok interchange. the weather is sunny at around 35 deg. thank you for travelling with SBS. " AMACIAM? not bad ah, SIA will crawl to me one day. just you wait. all in all, fun time over, OLEVELS here to kick butts. june, i will not let you slip by. WHEEPEE! mugging time! )=) and hey, enjoy thailand people. =)
8:20 PM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
hmm,i am actually in the mood to blog you know.
i went to alot of blogs.
its so funny that different people have different way of talking heh?
i can just hear zhaoming talking as im reading her blog. its damn scaaryy.
i can imagine nabila's selenger face as she type away.
i can feel her warmth as i read her teeny words.
i can tell another she is pissed with him.
i can tell another another she is missing someone.
i can hear, see and feel.
but the stupid thing is, i am so numb as i type all this out.
there is so many stupid emotions running around, such that im NUMB.
theres so many things i want to tell you. there's so many things i want to with you.
i have got enough of this bloody invisible force that kept me strong enough to not just drag you by the collar and throw you on the ground and then hug you. time to end all this "force" dont you think? dont torture me already. two years.enough man.
sure, the freaking guilty feeling is still there. every time i see your face, i know that i was wrong. once, twice, thrice. god damn it. this song's for you.
7:35 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
i dont mean to be a beach, but i actually thot my efforts would touch you. not even a word? tsk. heyy people. im sorry, but im just blardy damn tired. of waiting for a call too. today was a draining day, i wana wait for a day im energentic enuf to blog abt today. and no matter how long you take, i'll be here waiting.
7:08 PM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
{you'll always be a part of me. i'm part of you definitely. girl,dont you know you cant escape me. oh darling, cause you'll always be baby.} the winner is.. THE WINNER IS (yes yes, its the group name baby.)! HAHAHAHA. OHMYGOD. i cant wait for 2moro. HAHAHA, wheepee! yay! =) im gona have a whale of a time 2moro. =)
10:10 PM
Friday, May 16, 2008
YOU MAY WANT TO SKIP THIS POST AND MOVE ON BELOW, IT IS MORE HEARTWARMING THERE. =) how could you. just how bloody could you. all i want to do now, is vent all my anger. you are damn ugly, so freaking ugly. ugly hair,ugly eyes, ugly nose,ugly lips,ugly cheeks,ugly neck,ugly arms,ugly legs and even worst : UGLY HEART. no no, maybe not ugly heart. YOU KNOW WHY?! COZ U AINT GOT ONE IN THE FIRST PLACE, BEACH. waste of time you say? our blarly long years of say, 22 years(?), a waste of time? of coz u dont care abt rept, coz you yourself dont have one.
how do you like being the person who practically (sorta) ruin my,OUR, wonderful sec sch life? i cant believe you did that. but, it happened. im ok with it, now. im fine with it. but you know one one thing wont change, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE. I HATE YOU. HATE. BEACH. and lastly, "you are so flat, that even the pancake would be insulted to be compared to you. BEACH."
6:32 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
pictureeees. randomization.
8:57 PM
Friday, May 09, 2008
have you ever felt that... even after you seemed to try so hard, none seemed to recognize it. even after you placed such high hopes, none appreciate it. even after you told urself its blardy ok, none seem to make you feel better. everyone wants to be loved, but when none reciprocate, and even openly show it, i just want to tell you, it hurts. our last parade coming. and yet... *dot dot dot* we did our share delta 08. lets make this last parade of ours, the most memorable ever. =) im ready to let go, bit by bit. it just sucks when {s} and even {c} dont want to let go heh? teehee. ooooh! ROD. OOOOOH! ROD! lalala. i shall not say a word, besides. TICK TOCK TICK TOCK. TIME IS RUNNING OUT. WAKAKAKA. =) im so disappointed, but thankful too. its better to receive help NOW, rather then when its gona o-lvls ryte? ryte. i dont like interviews. so tiring! but thanks to interviews, we got insights on many things. the oaths are funny. hahaha. imissmyspecialists.ilovemycadets.iadoreandlovemyplatoonmates.wheepee.
7:43 PM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
{someday we'll know, why i wasnt meant for you} i just screamed my blarrrdy head off. look at the horrible sights below. oh my god. and im not talking bout my dad's tummy.
oh my goodness. thats all. word of the day : YUCKS. i actually have a video of my dad in action but nope, its too gory. EEWWW. yucks. BLEAAARGH.
9:10 PM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
hey you, what a way to tease me. you made my hands shook in fear. you made my wet patch at my armpit to triple its normal radius. you made me feel as tho it was the end of the world. and to another you, how could you? HOW COULD YOU? shut ur trap man bitch. i have loads of ur other secrets. i never spill any of them. how could you. i swear, u are a bitch of no comparison. fat bitch. i had the time of my life today. went round and round, bought a top, saw cedarians and person. bye bye shortie. it was comfy to have you on. bt yeah, u are abit old already. last year june sia, hahaha. neverrmind. i will always remember you. =) im not sad, im relieved. and tammy bammy, HAHAHA, im so sorry. its really nt gona happen soon. WEDNESDAY. been waiting for you to come. parade! wheepee! =) NEWER NEW NC TEE. yessaaaa. =) im a happy kid. this is because, the positive impacts outweigh the negative impacts. soo conclusion, HAPPINESS. but just one more thing, how could you? beach.
10:57 AM
hello! =) yay, we getting ready to go shop tillw e drop mansxzx. ok, eww. im at amiraaah's now. see ya peeps. =) and eh eh eh, GUESS WHAT?! MID YEARS OVER LAH SEY! WOOHOOOOOOO!!!
7:34 PM
Monday, May 05, 2008
YAY! oneeee blardy paper more! =) i shall study hard for history. yeah sure. cant wait for shopping trip 2moro! =) YESSAAAA. sch's over at 9 thirrrrty! and i had fun drinking tauhue while talking in chinese cum american slang. "ni yaw ma? weii, SI MO LE NI!" and " YAW!" HAHAHAHA. eeyerr, i still wonder why u noe. shes soo pfft, grrr, blueks, PUKES. yeah, hahaha. hmmm, i still dont like you. YES YOU! {BURN BURN BURN, BABY BURN!}
7:33 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
its nice to have a sense of belonging heh? wonder when i will feel that. physics, here i come. i aint gona sleep tonyte manz. i will kick physic's butt. no, i MUST. teehee.
tuesday : booked.
wednesday : booked.
SATURDAY: BOOOOOOOKED! =)
please dear mummy, pwetty pwetty pleaaase? i wana spend time with spammy bammy. puuuhleeeeeeeezeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. im living for the week ahead, let it be filled with happiness. teehee, till further updates folks.
{lemme touch the sky with you. i wana fly with you.}
10:37 PM
Saturday, May 03, 2008
i can never feel smaller. tho smart ppl like pisang refuse to make me forget that i am small, which i still believe im not... today, you made me feel very very tiny,or puny so to say.i am not even visible under the microscope maybe. im not even big enough to be allowed a lot in the periodic table. how could you friend.. how blardy could you. tsk tsk tsk. amirah said ppl will be confuse when they read my blog cz it does not state who or what exactly im talking about. WAKAKA. so my motto is: if you think its you, then its you. =) honey needs a wash. i read the entire physics textbook. and i went gaga. i think taylor swift it darn hot. i am in loove with leona lewis. wooh. and yeah, thats it. =) im smiling. and i miss huang zhen yi. haaais, i wana see her dance again. aiyoo. tsk. this is a stupid stress-relieving post.
3:41 PM
i hate physics. i hate physics to the core. like really really hate. why the hell didnt i take bio? WHYY. i would rather write a whole essay on how the sandwhich becomes shit, rather than calculate the number of complete ups and downs of my jaws to grind the food and how much energy i wasted doing that. GRRRRRR. too late for this heh? GRRR. so im here, after 6 hours of physics.i hate physics. =( im gg drop to combi science. yeaps, made up my mind already. its ok teachers, you dont have to force me, IM WILLING TO. GRRRR. i hvnt start on history. hahaha, but im positive its gona be a hell lot better than stupid physics. oh kay, enough blabbering. im off to the dining table cum study table. =) IM GONA KICK PHYSICS' BUTT. and nevermind, its gona be over soon. and you know what, its gona be a new beginning soon too.. =)= YAY! i cant wait. *my heart's jumping for joy* and to all those who were emotionally affected by my previous post, my sincere apologies. TEEHEE. { with your hands around me, what more could i ask for? }
7:05 PM
Friday, May 02, 2008
i have a sad news.
its such a devastating news that it shook my knees, till now.
we just saw her. we were just near her.
and now shes gone. leaving us forever.
no amount of insurance can ever cover the loss.
i miss her already.
how can the driver be so careless?! he may have cracked his bone shoulder or whatnot.
but shes gone. leaving us forever. no amount of tears can revive her back.
when we saw her, she was beyond recognition.
practically smashed into pieces, so minute that it was comparable to the pieces of our shattered hearts.
how could this happen? how? why? now of all times?
i hope my brother in law would be strong. nothing last forever in this world. i should have cherished her more while she was still around. i took her for granted. i did not treasure her while i can. all the times we had, will always be etched in my mind. and lastly, to my dear sister, its just a car, be strong. bye bye suzuki swift. HAHAHAHA, eh,got suspense not?! WHEEEHEEHEE. its my sister's CAR btw. it was rented by this guy and then he got into this accident, and the car was beyond words lah. then ah,he only merely crack his donoe wat. didnt even need to go hospital. THEN AH, he refuse to pay back anything u noe! his uncle was like, "thank god he is still alive. and yet you want to ask for compensation?!" i mean like HELLO UNCLE, he smashed my sister's car and its not even her FAULT, you scolding her for what?! aiyoyoyoyo. STUUUPID SIA. so angry.poor suzuki swift. my sister cried like maaaaad lah. i have always adored the car. hahaha. heeheehee. =)
3:00 PM
Thursday, May 01, 2008
i finally see the light on how to do logarithms! gaaaaaaaaaaaah!! woohoo! MORE A-MATHS TO COME. BLUEEEEEEKSSS! {and i will pay for the jaguar.}